‘m having a really hard time coping with my life lately. My ex, the biggest narc in my life, and I broke up four months ago
My ex doesn’t care about our child and only uses him to look good about himself, he only seems to want to have sex with a new person every night, get messed up, sell drugs or impress his friends with drugs and taking them on road trips (he just took his friends on a road trip to Colorado today, it’s the sixth trip since we split up) and whatever else fuels his ego, but he won’t support our child in any way, he’s only gave me money for diapers a month after I left and was pissed about doing so… he even uses seeing or not seeing our son to hurt me and claims that I need to treat him right or it’ll be bad for, in his quotes, “your son”.
I don’t have any friends in my life anymore, mostly because he screwed them all, and I still keep trying to talk to him to get him to be more responsible for our child even though I should just kick him out of my life completely and it’s just worse on my mental state.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I want him to be a father, but I’m giving up on that ever happening and I don’t think he’ll ever stop living solely to impress others while I live solely to raise our child. I just don’t want to hurt like this anymore.