I am 44 yr widowed man from pune, having 2 kids. my wife passed away 5 years back. I was totally busy with office and looking after my kids. I have some tragic past as my first girlfriend/finance passed away in accident and my wife passed away due to heart attack. Since then I am living happily with my kids.Recently my friends suggested me to join dating site for companion/female friend. I joined one site and surprisingly got in touch with divorcee lady(single mother). We connected very fast to each other that we meet for coffee next day. It was good 2 hours coffee date. We shared lots of things about each other. She even told me about her last 2 relationships very openly.We used to chat long hours at nights. She was giving all indication that she just love my company. she was very excited and was telling me that she is eagerly ready to be in relationship with me as most of our views/liking/hobbies were matching. On 3rd day of our friendship, she suggested that we should go for dinner on next day. I was ready, due to holidays my kids were went to my in-laws house. At night around 1 a.m. she messaged me to meet in morning at her place as she is very excited. I took leave and went to her place. We had nice talk and while talking I took her hand in my hands. All of sudden she told me sorry I can’t do it. I was ok and leave her hands. She told me that she will inform me about evening dinner. So I left place and went to CCD for coffee. She sent me message that sorry as she is not able recover from her previous relationship and canceled our dinner.After that date she just stop communication, I was not able to understand what happened in few mints. I even messaged her “Is there anything I did wrong?”. She told me no you are very nice lovable guy. We can be good friends, can’t move ahead. I do respect her feelings. She is not even consider me as her friend as most of my messages (which I write hardly once in few days) she is deleting without reading.I really fall in love with her, but do respect her feelings and stopped communication with her. But she activated my sensual desire. Now I don’t know how to come out of it. It’s really difficult for me. Few day I am taking long route to my office from her home. Although I am not stopping there, but can’t forget her. What can I do?
June 7, 2017