People wonder why I am single at 28. Let me introduce myself. I am Shinjini Banerjee, a girl of traditional values but modern aspirations. I am not beautiful, I am pretty average looking. Overweight, on top of that. I have stars twinkling in my eyes and imagine diamonds in the sky. But why am I still single?
I live in the world of fairy tales and dream of having a Disney Prince, who will kiss me out of my single status. Yes, kiss me, but only a kiss is not enough in real life. It’s natural for couples to be in a sexual relationship.
And here’s where I am going to explode the bomb – I AM SCARED OF SEX… Yes, that’s true!
For instance, what happens on the first night? Or during the honeymoon time? Sooner or later, the girl has to lose her virginity. And the process is extremely painful. Her hymen is ruptured. And the horrendous image of blood running down her legs, scares the hell out of me.
But if she can bear the period cramps, if she can see the labour pain through, during childbirth, why can’t she just enjoy this painful pleasure?
When a man enters a woman, it’s important that not only 2 bodies, but also 2 souls connect and become one. True love crashes through all barriers and during this beautiful intimate moment, it feels as though time has stood still…
I have discussed this issue with my mother. She told this to a family friend, who insisted on some relationship counselling sessions. But I feel that I am the best counsellor for myself. And the best part is that I have been able to counsel myself while writing this story. Yes, Disney Princes do nothing more than kissing in fairy tales, but life is much straighter. You need to explore one another for love to grow deeper. Lust may not last, love will, but lust is a part of love, and no one can change that.
I still seek my Prince Charming – a man who will kiss and tell me those three magical words, but also a man who will talk to me about my sexual fears, knowing how to deal with them maturely, and keep me relaxed, and yes, cuddling is a must.
But as of now, I CELEBRATE BEING SINGLE