pātai:
Kia ora e kui ,
E whitu tau te roa o taku noho tahi. I mua ake nei, i noho māua i te tāone kotahi, engari nā ngā raruraru whānau, me neke ahau ki tētahi atu kawanatanga. I tawhiti rawa atu tā māua hononga, ā, kāore au i te mōhio i te wā i rerekē ai ōna kare ā-roto nā te mea ko ia tonu tōna āhua ki ahau. I tūtaki māua kotahi, e rua rānei ngā wā i te tau.
Engari i moe tāne ia. E rua, e toru tau te roa o tēnei mahi, ā, kāore tōna whānau i kōrero mai ki ahau mō tēnei mea, i whakaaro rātou ka raru ahau i te rongo. I taku kitenga i tēnei, i tautoko tōna whānau i ahau, ā, i mea atu kia moe ia i ahau. I whakakahore ia. I whakakahoretia ahau e ia i mua i te katoa. Koinei te rā tino kino rawa atu o tōku ao.
I mea ia i te tīmatanga he mahi TP (wā haere) noa iho tā rāua, ā, i mōhio anō hoki ia he hoa wahine pumau tāna.
Engari i roto i te wā, ka piri tonu rāua, ā, i whiriwhiria e ia ia kaua ko au. I rite tonu ia ki te whakarērea i tōna whānau mōna. I tautoko tonu ōna mātua i ahau, ā, i akiaki i a ia kia moe māua, ā, i moe māua hei whakaaro noa ki te whakaute me te hapori.
Kua kotahi tau māua e marena ana, ā, kei te whakapā tonu taku tāne ki tana hoa wahine. Kāore anō rāua kia rite ki te wareware tetahi ki tetahi. Kei te tūtaki tonu rāua. I taku pātai atu ki a ia, ka mea ia, 'i mōhio koe e pai ana ahau ki a ia , he aha koe i whakaae ai kia marena māua! Kaua e tumanako ki tetahi mea i ahau.'
I ngana nui rāua ki te whakamamae i ahau i mua i te marena, engari i taea tonu e au te marena, nā te mea kāore au i tatari kia whiua rāua e te karma. I whakangaromia e rāua tōku ao; i mōhio tōku whānau, ōku hoa, me te katoa ki tō māua whanaungatanga. He aha taku e kī atu ai ki te katoa, he aha māua i wehe ai?
I aroha nui hoki ahau ki a ia. Kei te aroha tonu ahau. Ko taua kōtiro, ko tana hoa wahine, he tangata tinihanga ia, ko te moni me te taatai anake tana e hiahia ana! He wahine makutu kino ia.
Engari kāore taku tāne e mārama! E ai ki a ia, ko ia ko au te patunga, ko au te hara. Kāore e taea e ia te whakarongo ki tētahi kupu whakahe mōna, nā te mea he harakore ia, nō reira ko taku e hiahia ana ki te kōrero ka taea e au te kōrero ki a ia, ehara i te mea ki a ia… Engari mōku, he rite tonu te kawenga o ngā mea e rua mō ngā mea i tupu…
Kāore au i te mōhio me aha ahau ināianei, kei te whawhai ahau mō tōku whakaute ki ahau anō, kāore e taea e au te tuku noa i tōku aroha ki taua wahine kino! I moe ahau kia whai ingoa ai tōku whanaunga, kia whai wāhi ai ahau ki te whakahoki i ngā mea ki tōna āhua o mua, engari i muri i te kitenga i te haere o te tau kua hipa, ahakoa te whakaatu i te aroha katoa ki a ia me tōna whānau, kāore tonu e taea e au te hanga i a ia hei mea māku. Kāore au i te mōhio me aha ahau. Kei te mate ahau mō te aroha, ā, kāore ia e aroha ki ahau. Kāore ia e tango i ahau, kāore e kōrero mai ki ahau.
Kāore ia e whakama ana mō tetahi mea i mahia e ia. Ki tāna, he hē ahau, ā, he tika rāua tokorua.
Kua hoha ahau ki te ngana i te mea kāore he whakautu, kei te whakamahere ahau kia wehe inaianei nā te mea kāore e taea te ora inaianei… tēnā koa tohutohu mai…
whakahoki:
E te Wahine,
Ka taea e au te whakaaro ki te kino o te kitenga i tōu wāhi aroha e tukuna ana ki tētahi atu.
Engari i tēnei wā, e wehi ana ahau kua taka koe ki roto i tēnei mahanga. Kua ngaro ia i a koe i mua i tana akiaki kia marena ki a koe. He aha tāu i tumanako ai kia huri? Ahakoa te āhua o taua kōtiro; ko te mea pono i whiriwhiria e ia ia i ngā wā katoa, ā, i muri mai ka akiakihia ia kia noho tahi me koe i tōna oranga. Ae ra, ka riri ia ki te mea katoa, ā, kāore e aro. Ehara i te mea nāu te he, engari i he tāu whiriwhiri.
He aha koe i kī ai "He aha taku e kī atu ai ki te katoa, he aha tā tāua i wehe ai"? He aha koe i kore ai e kōrero ki te katoa i tinihanga ia i a koe, ā, koia te take i mutu ai tāu mahi? He aha koe i whakama ai ki te whakaae i TŌNA hē?
Kātahi ka whiriwhiria e koe tētahi mate kino atu anō mōu? Ka mea koe, "I taea e au te marena, nā te mea kāore au i tatari kia whiua rātou e te karma" – he aha tāu i tumanako ai ka tupu? Pērā i ngā kiriata ka mōhio ohorere ia he wahine pōrangi moni ia, ā, ka tangi atu ki a koe? Kāore te ao tūturu e rite ki ngā kiriata, e taku e aroha. Nā ngā mea katoa i tupu kua meinga ia kia whakaaro kāore te ao i tika ki a ia. Inaianei kua riri ia, kua pōuri hoki, ā, kua pouri hoki mō te kore e taea te noho tahi me ia.
Kia mārama koe, ehara i te mea kāore ia i te he, kāore hoki koe i te hē. Kei te ngana noa ahau kia kite koe me whakaaro te tangata ki tua atu i ngā kare ā-roto me ngā "mea tika" me te whakatau i ngā whakatau whai hua. Ki taku whakaaro ko tāu whakatau ki te wehe te mea pai rawa atu i tēnei wā. Kua tae ki te wā kia whakahokia mai tō whakaaro ki a koe anō, kia kitea anō ai koe. Me puta atu koe i tēnei huringa o te mamae, me tīmata he oranga hou. Ahakoa he aha te mea ka pā ki a rātou; ko te mea nui ko tāu e hanga ai i tō oranga ināianei.
Kia ora anō koe! Ngā mihi nui ki a koe!
Ehara tō takoha i te koha aroha . Mā tēnei ka taea e Bonobology te kawe tonu mai i ngā mōhiotanga hou me ngā mōhiotanga hou ki a koe i roto i tā mātou whainga ki te āwhina i te tangata o te ao ki te ako me pēhea te mahi i tetahi mea.
Ki taku whakaaro kua porangi koe. He aha koe i moe ai i a ia me te mōhio kua kore ia e aroha ki a koe? Ko te Atua anake hei whakaora i a koe i tēnei raruraru. Kia maia, kia inoi tonu kia hoki mai tō tāne ki a koe.