Ngithandana nomuntu engithandana naye ngaphandle komshado. Ngangingakaze ngicabange ukuthi ngingazifaka entweni efana nalena ngenxa yokuthi nganginokuphila okujabulisayo futhi kwakungekho okunye engangingakucela.
Ngihlala endaweni ephithizelayo yaseMumbai noGirish noVihana, indodakazi yethu eneminyaka engu-9. Mina noGirish sethulwa ngehhovisi lemishado. U-Vihana wazalwa ezinyangeni ezingu-10 ngemva komshado wethu. Umyeni wami ungubaba odoting futhi ungumlingani onakekelayo kakhulu. Uyindoda enengqondo kakhulu futhi ungumlingani olinganayo. Ungumuntu onothando ongenathemba onenhliziyo enkulu nephanayo. Uyihange lami futhi ngiphendukela kuye ngakho konke.
Ubani ongakhononda ngokuphila okunjalo? Akekho, kufanele ngicabange.
(Njengoba kutsheliwe ku-Eleena Sanyal)
Amagama ashintshiwe ukuze kuvikelwe ubunikazi
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Umshado ongenanhlansi
Okuqukethwe
Ngokushesha umsebenzi kaGirish wawudinga ukuba ahambe kakhulu. Nokho, wayephuthelwa ukuba sekhaya, futhi ekubuyeni kwakhe wayevame ukusala kakhulu futhi ekhathele ukusinika isikhathi esiseqophelweni eliphezulu ngaphambi kokusuka futhi.
Ukubuyela kuye kwakumayelana nokupakisha isikhwama esilandelayo nokugxuma endizeni elandelayo. Ngase ngijwayela ukungabikho kwakhe kodwa izikhathi zakusihlwa zazivele zibe nzima, futhi ngangihalela ukuba nabantu abadala kanye nengxoxo.
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Ucansi olusheshayo lapho ebuya lwalubonakala lunjengomsebenzi ophoqelelwe. Kwakuyisinxephezelo esingesihle ngobusuku besizungu kabuhlungu esachitha izilwandle zihlukene. Kwaqala ntula inhlansi okwagcina uthando lwethu luphila iminyaka eminingi. Cishe yilesi sikhala esingenze ngaba langazelela umuntu okhethekile ngokungazi.
Futhi angizange ngibe naso isikhathi sokucabanga ukuthi ngase nginqume ukushada noGirish ku-rebound. Ngomshado, usana olushesha kakhulu kanye nezingcindezi zokuphila kwasemadolobheni, ngangingakaze ngibuke emuva izimo zomshado wethu.
Kwaze kwafika lolo suku olubi olwaphawula ukuqala kokuphela kwengqondo yami nokuqala kokujola nesoka lami langaphambili.
Ngazithela ku ex yami
Ngokuphikelela kwakhe, ngaya esikhumulweni sezindiza ukuze ngiyomehlisa lapho eya e-US. Ngemva kokushiya u-Girish, ngabona indoda iphuma ku-auto-rickshaw engangiyihlabe umkhosi. Amehlo ethu ahlangana ngezwa ngishaywa ngesibhakela emgodini wesisu sami.
KwakunguNitin! Amehlo akhe awazange asuke awami njengoba simile sobabili singanyakazi okwakubonakala sengathi ingunaphakade. Wangibuza ukuthi nginesambulela yini.
Sobabili besazi ukuthi kwakungumbuzo ongasho lutho. Ngokucindezela okukhulu ngizama ukuzwakala njengokujwayelekile, ngakhomba ikhefi eseduze futhi ngambuza ngokungananazi ukuthi wayekulungele yini ukuthola inkomishi.
Ukukhononda kwakhe kwavusa into eyayilele ngaphakathi kimi. Sahlala phansi ngamgoqa ishumi lami lokugcina lisashisa ikhofi. Ngangifisa ukwazi ukuthi impilo imthathephi.
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Kwakuwuthando olunzima
Mina noNitin sasike sahlangana emshadweni kusasele unyaka ngaphambi kokuthi kufike uGirish. Sasiyishaye ngokushesha. Kwakuwuthando oluvuthayo nesoka lami lokuqala ngqa.
Ngemva kothando olunzima olwathatha isigamu sonyaka, ngase ngibuze umbuzo. Impendulo yakhe ezolile neqoqiwe yayibonakala ihleliwe futhi icacile. Wayedinga isikhathi esengeziwe.
ngizwe esetshenzisiwe futhi ilahliwe. Ukuthula kwakhe ezinsukwini ezimbalwa ezalandela kwakubuhlungu kakhulu. Kuthe ngokuhamba kwesikhathi angibange ngisazibambi izingcingo zakhe ngagcina sengivimbe inombolo yakhe. Ngemva kwezinyanga eziyisithupha uGirish wangena ekuphileni kwami, engawunaki umlando wami, futhi wangishada ngaphandle kwemibuzo.
Siqhubeke lapho sigcine khona
U-Nitin akazange akhulume kakhulu, ekhuluma ngomkakhe okhulelwe uPriya phakathi kwezinye izinto. Isithombe somunye wesifazane empilweni yakhe manje sasibuyisela emuva ebuhlotsheni bethu obungakaze bubone ukukhanya kosuku. Ngamsola ngokuthi ungishiye phansi. Uthe ubengakethembi lutho.
Ngaso sonke leso sikhathi, ngezwa ngidonsela kuye ngendlela engenakunyakaziswa. Ngahlanganisa ingqondo yami ngaxolisa ngokuziphatha kwami okuhle futhi ngaphakamisa ukuthi sibonane futhi ngemva kokuphela kwehhovisi lakhe ngakusasa. Bengingazi ke ukuthi isiqalile indaba yami ne ex yami.
Ukuthandana kwami ngaphandle komshado nesoka lami langaphambili kwaba nothando
Umhlangano owodwa uholela komunye. Ukuphela kweminyaka kwanyamalala njengoba sicosha imicu yesikhathi esidlule esabelana ngaso ngezikhathi zantambama ezishisayo nobusuku bothando olunganqamuki.
I-Nitin yadedela amagagasi e-visceral enjabulo engangikade ngiyikhohlwa. Wangenza ngancibilika lapho ngimvumela. Wathungela kimi lokho uGirish ayengeke abe nakho, noma ezama. I ukujola ngaphandle komshado nesoka lami langaphambili ngazizwa njengento engcono kakhulu ukuthi yenzeke kimi ngeminyaka.
Angazi ukuthi kuzophela kanjani lokhu
Njengoba silele sichitha phakathi kwamashidi, ngaphulula ikhanda lakhe elilele ngathi 'ngiyakuthanda'. Wavula amehlo wamamatheka kodwa wangaphendula. Imibuzo ekhona emayelana nomphumela okhulayo walezi zikhathi ezihlanganisiwe ingishaya kakhulu.
Ngingaphinde ngibheke uGirish wami ongasoli, ohlale ethembekile ngendlela efanayo futhi? Ukuphila naye manje kwase kuwumsebenzi onzima.
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Ngazibuza ukuthi ingabe i-Nitin ingase ibe umgibeli wezokuthutha esikhumulweni sezindiza sempilo yami kuyilapho u-Girish kuyindiza eyohlala ingiyisa ekhaya ngokuphephile. Isikhathi kuphela esiyosho ukuthi siyoqhubeka kuze kube nini siphila la manga.
Ngazizwa nginecala futhi ukubhebhana kwami ne ex boyfriend yami ngoba unkosikazi wakhe uPriya naye wayekhohliswa. Angikaze ngibuze uNitin ngomkakhe noma ngengane ayilindele futhi akakaze akhulume ngabo futhi. Kwesinye isikhathi ngiyamangala indlela angenandaba nazo ngazo futhi angithandane nami kube sengathi alikho ikusasa.
Kodwa wayengenje njalo? Wayengeyena yini a isoka elizicabangela lona, ngingenandaba nemizwa yami, angikuthandi ukuphila ndawonye. Izindaba ziye imiphumela. Kuzofanele sibhekane nakho ngiyazi.
Kunezikhathi lapho ubazi bonke ububi besimo kodwa usafuna. Yilokho okwenziwa uthando kuwe.
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