Te Hurihanga o taku Ngākau Pakaru i a Au hei Tangata

"Ā, i taua wā o te ngohengohe katoa, kua herekore ahau, kua wātea." He maha ngā wā kua rongo ahau, kua pānui rānei i tēnei rārangi, me te whakaaro tonu he aha te tikanga o tēnei! Me pēhea te whiwhi i te herekoretanga i roto i te ngohengohe, i te tuku? He tangata ngohengohe ahau i mua, ā, nā tēnei i raru ai ahau. Ko te ngohengohe ka arahi ki te iti o te whakapono ki a ia anō, te iti o te whakaaro ki a ia anō me te kore haumaru. He kino!

Engari kua mōhio ahau ināianei. Pērā i ngā mea katoa, kāore he aha mena me tuku e koe te wehi kia ngaro, me tuku rānei tō tiaki i te katoa. Ko te mea nui ko wai hoki ka whakaaturia e koe ō ngoikoretanga.

He aha ngā mea i akohia mai e tōku ngākau pouri

I muri i tētahi aituā kino neke atu i te rua tau ki muri, i mōhio ahau kua kati ahau, kua puta ake ngā raruraru whakawhirinaki, ā, kua panaia atu ngā tāngata. Ka puta tēnei ina whakamahia e tētahi hoa i whakawhirinakihia e koe ō kare ā-roto, ā, i te mutunga o te 'ngahau', ka peia atu koe. Nō reira, i mataku ahau ki te piri anō!

Nā tōku mamae ngākau me tōku tinihanga i ako ahau kia tūpato ki ahau anō, kia kaua e tukua taku tiaki kia heke iho, nā te mea ka taea e tō ngākau te tinihanga i a koe, kia tūpato hoki ki ngā kōrero a te tangata, kaua ki āna mahi. I amuamu aku hoa kāore au i kōrero ki a rātou, he nui rawa taku whai wāhi ki a au anō. Ā, ka mea tōku whaea, "Me pēhea te mōhio o te tangata ki a koe mēnā kāore koe e tuku i a rātou kia tata mai ki a koe? Kaua e pupuri i te tangata kia tawhiti."

Kāore i āwhina te ngaronga o taku mahi i tēnei. Ahakoa i pai taku whakahaere i taku mahi mai i taua wā, ka nui ake te manukanuka i ahau. Nā te hiahia kia mutu taku mahi i rapu utu ai ahau, i tumanako rānei kia whakapāha mai tētahi atu tangata.

Nā te hiahia kia mutu taku raruraru i rapu utu ai ahau, i tumanako rānei kia whakapāha mai tetahi atu tangata.

I whakaaro ahau ka homai e ia te rangimārie o te hinengaro e rapuhia ana e au. Kāore he tangata e mārama ki tēnei. Ki te nuinga o ōku hoa, he kaupapa tawai, he kaupapa aroha rānei ahau. Kāore au i hiahia ki tētahi o aua mea. Kāore au i takaro i te kāri patunga nā te mea, kāore tetahi i tono ki te kaihara kia whakatika i ana ara! Kōrero mai ehara tēnei i te ao tāne.

Nā ēnei katoa ahau i piki haere ai te riri, me te rapu utu i ia rā, i ia rā.

Kātahi ka whakatau ahau ki te whakamātau i te hangarau

Tae noa ki tētahi rā pai, i runga i te whakaaro ohorere, ka whakatau ahau ki te whakamātau i tētahi mea hou, he hua o te hangarau, ka whakamahi hei tūtaki ki te tangata. I ruarua tonu ahau mō te whakaipoipo ipurangi. Engari i whakaaro ahau me whakaatu ahau i ahau ki waho, kaua e tatari kia puta!

Kātahi ka puta mai ia, te tangata kei roto i tana koiora te kupu #impulsive.

He rite tonu ki ngā wā katoa, engari he tino pai ngā whanonga, he reo i arohaina e au, he ngākau nui ki ngā mea hou, ki ngā tāngata hou. I roto i te poto, he tangata tino rerekē i taku taumata. He kaipūtaiao hihiri ia, he rapanga whakamiharo tana, ā, he atamai hoki! I mōhio ia ki tāna e kōrero nei. Ko tana wheako ki te reo Wīwī (i mahi ia i tana tohu MS i Wīwī) i kitea i roto i tana kōrero me tana whanonga. Tae atu ki tana whiriwhiri waiata me ngā whakaaturanga pouaka whakaata he atamai! Ā, he pakihi tīmatanga tana! I mahara ahau kāore he huarahi mōku ki konei.

I tino tino tika ia

I mataku ahau i a ia. Ā, e 3-4 karāhe wai i inumia e ia i te mataku i tō māua rā tuatahi. Engari, i te haere o ngā rā, he tino harikoa te noho tahi me ia. I a ia e whakapuaki ana i ōna whakaaro, ka tīmata ahau ki te pai ki ngā mea katoa i kōrerotia e ia. Ka kite ahau i ngā rama Kirihimete i roto i tana kata. Ka ara ake ahau me āna karere kuputuhi "Mōrena" me ētahi atu mea puta noa i te ao me te pō. Koinei te mea i roa e hiahiatia ana e au.

Heoi, i te wā e ngana ana ia ki te whakatata mai, ka ārai ahau i a ia. Kāore au e whakahoki kupu atu i ngā wā katoa e kōrero ana ia i tētahi mea aroha, i tētahi mea whakaipoipo rānei; ka pupuri ia i tōku ringa engari ka tangohia e au, ā, ka karo tonu ahau i te kōrero mōku ake. Ehara i te mea kāore au i te aro ki a ia. Engari he mea kei roto i tōku mahunga ka tangi pērā i te whakaoho ahi i te wā e ngana ana ia ki te whakatata mai! Ka rongo ahau he whakaaro huna tāna, ā, pērā i te tini o ngā tāne, ko te hiahia noa kia moe, ahakoa kāore ia i mahi i tētahi mea e tohu ana i tēnā. Engari kua ara ake ngā mamae o te wehi, ā, ka tīmata te mahi, ka haurangi ahau, ka mataku.

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Kātahi ka tīmata ahau ki te ruarua

He aha mēnā he kōrero teka katoa?

He aha rā mēnā he take huna kei muri i ēnei mahi katoa?

I tūtaki tāua i runga ipurangi, āe? Kāore ianei he hunga whakarihariha kei roto i ngā taupānga whakaipoipo?

A, mehemea, ina oti i a ia, ka whakarērea ahau e ia, pērā i mua?

E maumahara ana ahau i taua pō, i noho puku mai ēnei wehi i roto i ahau. Engari, i pehia e au aua wehi. Ahakoa i kī mai kei te whakarite anō ahau i ahau mō te mamae o te ngākau, kāore ahau i whiriwhiri ki te oma atu! Ā, i muri i tētahi wā poto, ka tukuna e au. Whakawhetai ki te Atua, i taea e au. Ā, i mārama ia ki taku e hiahia ana! He ātaahua, he ngawari hoki ia, ā, i homai e ia ki ahau taku ake wā reka ki te whakapuaki i taku kare ā-roto kua tīmata ki a ia. Kāore au i te mōhio me pēhea te taea e tētahi tangata tauhou te mea kia pai ai, kia haumaru ai ahau. Ā, e hia ngā tāne e tono ana kia whakaaetia? Āe, i whakaae ia!

I roto i taua wāhi, ka titiro tika mai ia ki ahau, ā, i te pa o ōna ngutu ki ōku ngutu, ka rongo ahau i te herekoretanga katoa, he herekoretanga kāore anō kia rongohia e au i roto i ngā tau e rua me te hawhe, he herekore nā te ao o mua. Kotahi noa te wā, ā, kua herekore ahau. I roto ahau i te ao o nāianei.

Kāore i taea e au te āwhina i a au anō

Heoi anō, i toa aku wehi i te mutunga. Ahakoa te nui o taku ngana ki te tautohetohe ki a rātou, kāore rātou i neke. Kātahi ka memeha katoa. I roto i tētahi wā pōuri, ka pātai atu ahau ki a ia mēnā he whakaaro kino tāna mēnā ka tūtaki ia ki ahau hei whakatutuki i ana moemoeā! I puta ke taku whakaaro i muri tonu i taku tukunga atu i te karere nā te mea i mōhio ahau kua nui rawa taku haere.

I tēnei rā, ka taea e au te kōrero i ēnei mea katoa ina titiro whakamuri. I panaia atu e au tētahi. Kāore te katoa e hiahia ana ki te whara i a koe, ki te whakarērea hoki i a koe. Nā te taumahatanga kare ā-roto me te mamae i mau i ahau i puta ai te pānga. Ā, i tino kaha taku whakapau kaha ki te whakapae i te tangata e mamae ana te ngākau mōna. Engari kāore i taea e au.

I taua wā ka pā mai te whakaaro ki ahau. Kāore au i hiahia kia whakapāha, kia rapu utu rānei i taua tangata. Kāore au i aro ki tēnā.

Kāore au i hiahia kia whakapāha mai taua tangata, kia rapu utu mai rānei. Kāore au i aro atu ki tēnā.

He mea whakamīharo te āhua o te tupu, engari i tupu. I roto noa i te marama kotahi, ka ngaro atu i ahau ngā mamae katoa o ngā tau e rua me te hawhe, me te mea he rewera e wehe atu ana i te tinana i nohoia e ia.

I mārama ahau ki te āhua i tukua ai e au te paitini kia horomia ahau i te mea kei a au tonu te tumanako me te aroha hei hoatu ki tētahi. I whara ahau; i whara hoki te hunga e aroha ana ki ahau.

Kaua e tukua koe kia mamae

Kaua tetahi atu e mamae mō te mahi a te wairua kotahi ki ahau, tae atu ki ahau!

Ki te kore te tangata nanakia e mamae, me pērā anō hoki koe. Ki te tīmata koe ki te mamae, ka mamae ētahi atu, inā koa ko te hunga he nui ā rātou mea hei hoatu ki a koe.

I a au e maumahara ana ki aua wā i noho tahi ai māua, ko te mea anake e maumahara ana ahau ko te nui o tōku whakawhetai mō te tuku i a au, ahakoa he wā poto noa iho, kia whai wā poto nei ki te harikoa me tētahi tangata kāore i te mōhiotia. Ahakoa kāore i roa, i whiwhi au i tētahi hoa, ā, i ngaro atu tōku wehi.

Ko tā taku hoa tēnei i kī mai ai, "Kei te hiahia koe ki te wikitoria i te wehi o te mamae o te ngākau? Tukua kia pakaru anō! Ka memeha haere te wehi."

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