He cheated on me but should I take him back? This question was eating me up at one point of time. He was like the dream guy that any girl would want but soon it became a bad dream I will tell you how.
He would always come receive me from airports and train stations. No, I never wanted him to pick up my bags. My suitcases had wheels, I could drag them. I didn’t realise he had started getting uncomfortable with a strong independent woman like me. It’s only when I caught him cheating on me that I understood what he was missing. He preferred the kohl eyed, saree clad siren.
It had been two years, yet every time I came back from a trip, I would imagine a Hollywood style entry of the hero waiting with a rose and an apology at the station. But that never happened. I will tell you what actually happened.
(As told to Dua Prayaag)
My Ex Boyfriend Wants Me Back After He Cheated On Me
In reality what I received was a phone call. His mother called. She and I had become close over phone calls when we were together. She called to tell me how sorry her son was for his mistake, for not just cheating on me but then being in a relationship with the pretty miss whom he fell for while promising to marry me.
She told me her son was in depression, and he didn’t know how to approach me. He had been cheated on as well. Karma, I tell you.
There was no way I could take his word and his apology as reasons enough to give him another chance.
When I caught him two years ago, I asked him to give us another shot and he refused. Thrice. I was a mess for a year. I thought I wouldn’t survive. I wasn’t aware of the strength in women like me who have fought the world for their rights. We eventually do, and I did, survive. Now taking back someone who cheated on me was out of question
I agreed to meet my ex again
I agreed to meet him on the weekend for coffee. I was seeing him after a year. The only man I’d ever been with and trusted more than anyone else, the man who caused me unimaginable pain, left me crying all by myself in a hotel room telling me he’d grown out of the six years of us being together, was sitting in front of me with his head hanging low.
I had never wished anything untoward for him since, except for karma to strike back.
The memories kept flooding back.“Can I hold your hand? I want to grow old with you. When I say I love you the most I mean there is no one across the world who makes me feel the way you do, with whom I can imagine spending my life and reading a book and having a family. It is you and only you,” he said to me.
A year after he said this he was actually holding her hand and he said they hug often but he was confused about his feelings. A year after he went on to say that I must let him move on with his new girlfriend and I should move ahead with my life in a dignified manner. A request for dignity from a cheater was hard to swallow back then. Now to think of it my ex wanted me back after he cheated.
He said sorry and wanted me back
At the café he apologised profusely. He promised to leave his workplace. That is where the two had their affair. I didn’t think that was necessary. One doesn’t have to work together to break someone’s trust. He said he wanted us to get married soon.
Did I have a reason to trust him? I thought I was married for those six years. I didn’t need a legal stamped document to prove my loyalty or keep me in this relationship. My notions hadn’t changed.
We were talking. I was trying to trust him again. I never stopped loving him, but I was sure not to let him in that space that I had let him through the 6 years.
I won’t place him before me now. I’m trying not to remind him of all the hurt he caused me through the two years. My friends and family were very wary of my decision to even start talking to him. He said he had changed. he cheated on me should I take him back?
It’s the speed with which he changes that scares me really.
I don’t know where I see myself with him, but I don’t know what else to do.
Taking back someone who cheated on you
I thought and thought about it. On the one hand was my love for him on the other hand was my hurt. I could not behave that those wonderful 6 years did not exist and I have to admit that when he sat in front of me apologising so haplessly, my heart went out to him.
We started talking on the phone and he started making appearances in front of my office with flowers. But soon I realised that taking back your ex boyfriend when he has cheated on you is not an easy task. Or maybe not a good idea even.
Because my doubts about his love for me remained. The harder he tried the harder I felt he was faking it. I felt a part of me had died and those emotions could never be resurrected. He cheated and wanted me back but I couldn’t get back.
It was always there in the back of my mind that it was a matter of time when he would cheat again, hurt me again. The trust was gone. I could not build a relationship again where trust did not exist. For me taking back someone who cheated on me was impossible. I tried but I failed.