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Great Sex

He was traumatised and afraid of sex, but she helped him heal

Joyeeta Talukdar April 5, 2021
Joyeeta Talukdar April 5, 2021

Table of Contents

  • We never consummated our marriage in six years
    • She wouldn’t keep quiet
    • The terrible things that happened to me
    • But now I have hope

(As told to Joyeeta Talukdar)

We never consummated our marriage in six years

We got married six years ago, but I haven’t slept with her ever.

Being from an orthodox Rajasthani family where marrying at the right time is important, under immense family pressure I married Avni. She wanted me and I wanted her too. But, every time I went near her, flashbacks left me mentally tortured. I’d be filled with guilt.

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Avni at first hesitated, but as time passed and I still resisted, she started asking questions I couldn’t answer.

“Did you marry me under family pressure? Are you impotent or gay?”

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But every time I remained silent and walked away, leaving her in dismay, confusion and emotionally torn up.

One day, however, her patience ended. She stood in front of me with betrayal in her eyes. I had just returned from summing up the day’s business and was tired but there she stood still. She grasped my hands and squeezed. I tugged but she didn’t let go.

She grasped my hands and squeezed. I tugged but she didn’t let go.
She took my hands and placed them on her hips

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Avni took my hands and placed them on her hips. I shivered and pushed her away, “Have you gone out of your mind?”

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She wouldn’t keep quiet

“Yes, I’ve gone out of my mind. Do I have a choice? You haven’t touched me since the day of our marriage but you take care of me so much in every other way. We’ve been married for two years and now our families have started asking questions like, ‘When are you planning to have children?’”

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Avni took a deep breath and continued, “I don’t have the answers, do you?” I couldn’t meet her eyes, they were filled with questions.

Then slowly I spoke, “I know I’m being unjust and if you want you can leave me. Just file for divorce. Put all the blame on me. I promise I will not contest it. Don’t destroy your life for me.”

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“No, I am not going to leave you. I want to know you. Can we start knowing each other? Can we become friends, please?”
Ten years after the tragic incident her words broke the shell I’d built around me and I spoke about it.

Ten years after the tragic incident her words broke the shell I’d built around me and I spoke about it.

The terrible things that happened to me

It was 10:00 p.m. on my first day of training as an engineer in a metro city.

I rushed to the house where I was staying as a paying guest with four more guys. Today I saw them for the very first time. They warmly welcomed me and offered me drinks. Something however seemed very nasty about their over-friendly nature. One of them slowly bolted the door.

They began to get cosy with me and after a few drinks began bullying me. They forcibly took out my wallet, but unfortunately, there was only Rs 200 in it.

They started hitting me. I tried to save myself but then I gave up. It was then I realized what they wanted to do next.
I tried to shout but one of them holding a knife near my neck.

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“Sorry, today was the first day of my training and I don’t have more cash with me,” I pleaded.

This made them angry.

One said, “He doesn’t have anything to give us but we have many things to take from him.”

They started hitting me. I tried to save myself but then I gave up. It was then I realized what they wanted to do next. They started sexually assaulting me. No one came to help me. I tried to shout but one of them had forcefully inserted my own shirt into my mouth and was holding a knife near my neck. They left me helpless on my bed where I lay till the dawn. At the break of dawn I somehow gathered myself and went to the bathroom, stood under the shower and started crying, too afraid to shout. I was afraid and ashamed.

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They left me helpless on my bed where I lay till the dawn. At the break of dawn I somehow gathered myself and went to the bathroom, stood under the shower and started crying, too afraid to shout. I was afraid and ashamed.

But now I have hope

I stayed in the room, restless without sleep. The guys came back and threatened me, assaulted me again. I wanted to go to the police but thought of my family’s reputation. So, I decided to flee and buried this secret deep within my heart. The unseen scars of that incident however became my worst nightmares.

She stayed with me throughout. She took me to the counsellor and helped me fight my fears.
She took me to the counsellor and helped me fight my fears.

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I felt my knees tremble and was about to fall when Avni helped me to sit down. I cried and she hugged me tight. But, somewhere I felt light as if a huge burden had been lifted from my soul.

Within a few days I was able to share everything with her: my fears, my cause of distress, my reason for running from sex, and she was the one who saw my tears. She stayed with me throughout. She took me to the counsellor and helped me fight my fears.

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It took four years to get myself counselled. And tonight my new life begins.

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5 comments

Karma August 6, 2019 - 5:41 pm

Touching narration. Guy it is not at all your fault that you faced the trauma. It can happen to anyone. But you are very lucky and God has given you wonderful person in your wife. Instead of running away from the situation or cheating you while staying in the marriage (which many women do today era blaming their husbands) , she loved you , made you to spell out your problem and stood rock solid with you in resolving the issue. That is what is true love, a companion and staying through thick and thin. I am sure now your marriage is with all happiness and prosperity. May God bless you people.

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Kavya Anjali August 9, 2018 - 11:24 am

This was a piece which somehow touched on reality. Is the person completely fine now? Would like to know how the journey ahead has been.

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Ashutosh Singh July 31, 2018 - 12:26 am

Very well that you spoke about it!! You never did wrong. You should not feel bad.
But to anyone with whom such thing has happened, please do not spare them.

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natasha suri July 30, 2018 - 8:42 am

Talking out your fears or the worst that has happened to you is essential to live your life ahead lighter. Avni was a really good and understanding partner , who did not misunderstand and take for granted why his behavior was so. Instead she was patient enough to give him time and let it out. I feel, unless we have someone who we can trust to a very high level, we cannot really open up about such things…

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Salonee Jain July 3, 2018 - 2:29 pm

Sexual assault can happen to anyone, no matter your age, your sexual orientation, or your gender identity. But you need to talk it out with someone who is your close friend or any family member. Keeping to yourself will not do anything g better. Don’t be shy, it can happen to anyone but speak up!

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