Life is unexpected and full of escapades we never expect! It is like a roller coaster ride for all relationships. But the moments that are unvoiced in a relationship remain with us till we die. My life took a turn after I ended up finding someone special after marriage.
For five years I never encountered anything unusual in my relationship with my husband. Everything was perfect and peaceful and I believed this was my destiny. It felt like heaven being married and I considered my husband to be the perfect love I was looking for. I never imagined I would develop feelings for another man while married. (As told to Shivi Goyal)
I thought this was love that will last forever. But life behaves like a moron at times. I was in an impression of pure love until I met Prithvi (name changed). I happened to experience the sigh of love with him which was apparently the purest form of love and I thought it would last forever. I’m sure a lot many of you will be able to connect with your own journey as well!
We were two married friends flirting
He (Prithvi) was a charming and intelligent married man. He was my best friend forever. He used to work with me in the same company and we shared things on a personal note as well. We were the craziest friends ever and our madness used to reach heights with adventure and fun almost all the time.
But at that time falling for a co-worker was out of question. We were both happily married and even if we indulged in some harmless flirting, it was two married friends flirting.
He was an enigmatic man, with plenty of reasons to make me smile. Years of true and genuine friendship between Prithvi and me turned into a passionate love story suddenly. I think we were developing feelings for each other. But what to do when you are married and attracted to someone else?
You obviously try your best to tell yourself that the consequence of an affair between two married people would be disastrous. So despite the ripples in the stomach we ignored our own feelings and tried to keep the friendship intact. We never thought we would end up finding someone special after marriage.
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He kissed me on my forehead
I remember the full moon night with twinkling stars! We sat on the terrace for long chatting and gazing at the blushing moon.Then something unexpected happened. His eyes looked different and hands had a subtle touch. I never experienced this touch before from him. He brought me closer, held my hands and kissed my forehead.
I felt like this is eternal, is this love? Or it is just a passion to be together? Or maybe we got attracted to each other as we were friends! I kept asking myself is it okay to be in love with someone’s who’s married? My heart said just go with the flow my mind said otherwise.The night blessed us with a feeling which we both hadn’t experienced before. The moment made me feel the love and passion that was engraved into our souls for each other.
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It was the moment which was meant to happen, that left us with many unsaid things in our relationship. We felt untainted love I felt he found me irresistible.
The night passed and it was hard for him to face and vice versa. We did nothing wrong but the unspoken love that spurred within us was making it tough for us to face each other. I was smiling within, blushing and felt the warmth of love like never before.
Our relationship had changed
For a few days, we both kept busy with work snatching some time in between for ourselves. But things were different now, we were not just friends, we had so many things to share and talk about the relationship we encountered and the feeling of love which bloomed in our hearts, thinking what to name it.
But we never got a chance to admit it, or knowingly we avoided it. Yes, his eyes said a lot, my actions said all, his texts and messages said that he was in love. I knew I had found my soulmate but I was married.
He wanted to shout aloud to the world that he was in love, but our current lives restrained us. We tried hard to stop ourselves and not to disturb the current life. But love was always in the air and the feeling of finding someone special at this juncture of life was out of the world.
Having feelings for another man while married was wrong
We soon realised that our relationship would be jeopardising our respective married lives. It was a very hard decision but we decided to part ways. Since we worked in the same office it would have been very hard for me to get over get over someone I see everyday. So I quit my job.
Months passed, we hardly speak or meet now. I remain stuck with my family issues and he’s busy working. He misses me and I miss him, but due to societal stigma and respect for each other’s families and our love we control ourselves.
Our relationship used to complete the vacuum of our current life. Now we are not in touch but I hope that a day will come when removing all boundaries we can be together again the way we were and can give a name to our relationship.
I sit alone and think of him as I just have memories left and I believe Prithvi does the same. We don’t get to see each other but I live in the hope of meeting him again and declaring our love for each other which is still very much alive. Attraction between married friends is normal but finding someone special after marriage is rare. I am lucky I found Prithvi.