8 Signs You Were Raised By A Toxic Mother: With Healing Tips From An Expert

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None of us are immune to the negativity of a toxic person and things become far worse when they happen to be our own loved ones. Your best friend, your lover, your siblings, they are all people you love and trust. The toxic traits of these people, hurt us the most. But when a person has been raised by a toxic mother, that hurt runs the deepest.

There was a time not too long ago, even in the most advanced thinking circles, if you dared to talk of toxic parents, your words were met with raised eyebrows, if not outright disapproval, even outrage. But fortunately, times are changing, and people are more open to accepting that everything might not be alright.

So, if you have ever been in this dilemma where you don’t really understand why your relationship with your mother remains strained. If you too have heard things like, “Mothers hate their daughters but love their sons,” but want to know if it is really true, then we are here for you. We talked to one of our esteemed counselors, Dr. Aman Bhonsle, a psychotherapist, and a relationship counselor, to understand this better and help us identify who is a toxic mom and 8 signs you were raised by a toxic mother.

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Dr. Bhonsle explains, “All relationships have disagreements, yet some relationships retain a constant component of unpleasantness and discomfort to a point where they hinder your mental well-being. Such a relationship is toxic.” What we must remember is that no one’s personality is completely black or white. They are so many shades of grey.

Are you still wondering who is a toxic mom? Then ask yourself this – have you, in your relationship with your mother, been frequently made to feel guilty, unworthy, ashamed, or frustrated? Have you ever wondered if your mother is suffering from the infamous jealous mother syndrome? Well then, this might have been due to certain toxic traits in your mother. Your mother could be very sweet and can shower you with gifts, but if she is stonewalling you when you disagree with her, then that is a toxic trait, or a part of signs your mother resents you.

We are encouraged to love our parents unconditionally without questioning them. We are taught to perceive our parents to be flawless, to the point that when they blame you for the problems in their life, you believe them. Relatable? Here are some other characteristics that you will relate to too if you have been raised by a toxic mother or a narcissistic toxic mother.

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1. She needs to be the one in control of your life

The primary trait of a toxic mother is they are going to try and control you. They will try and dictate every aspect of your life. While it is indeed perfectly normal to advise your child, to teach them what is good and harmful, it is not, however, acceptable to threaten or ill-treat them physically or emotionally blackmail them when they don’t adhere to your every word.

If your mother dictates your life to the point that she is telling you what to wear, what to study, what career you should have, who you should be friends with, or who you should be marrying regardless of your passions or interest, then you have a toxic mother. If she gives you the silent treatment or emotionally blackmails or physically abuses you when you disagree, those too are signs of a toxic mother.

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2. She has no control over her emotions

Have you wondered “Is my mom toxic or am I overreacting?” Well, this might help you recognize her toxicity. “The common misconception is, emotions give rise to thought when the reverse is actually the truth.” Explains Dr. Bhonsle “A toxic mother is never going to admit that her thoughts are a reflection of her unmet expectations or that it’s her perceptions that are coloring her way of thinking.”

It is normal to have a minor slip-up once in a while or say something mean when you are upset. However, a person who is a toxic mom will lash out at her child every time she is upset. Sometimes it might even turn into frequent verbal and physical abuse. These are clear signs your mother resents you. She doesn’t have the ability or knows the ways to resolve conflicts with her children in a healthy manner.

3. Your boundaries will be infringed upon and glossed over

Everyone has boundaries. Scratch that, everyone should have boundaries. Boundaries are not confines to keep people away and seclude yourself; instead, they are barriers to keep you safe and mentally healthy. But a toxic mother will have none of that.

But one of the most common traits of a toxic mother is her lack of respect regarding your boundaries. Maybe it was in the form of reading your journals or barging into your room without knocking. Toxic parents feel their children are an extension of themselves, hence there is no need for privacy. These mothers also fear the worst when it comes to their children and even imagine they are up to no good.

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4. She will try to manipulate you to get her way

Be it a parent or a partner, one of the most constant characteristics of a toxic person is their penchant for manipulation. For the person being manipulated, it is also one of the hardest things to recognize and break free from. Be it through emotional blackmail, guilt, fear, or shame, a narcissistic toxic mother will use them all to get her way with her child. Often the child is too wrapped up in these negative emotions to even know what is going on.

It could be something as small as wanting to go elsewhere for a vacation, instead of spending it with your parents. Yet you will be made to feel guilty about choosing anything else but them. You might be forced to wonder if you have a narcissistic mother jealous of daughter, unable to let her have a good time. A toxic mother will use all types of emotional manipulation to get you to do her bidding.

5. She has very little empathy

The earliest memory Manny had of his mother, was her locking up him up in a pitch-dark room for breaking a vase. He was sent in there to think about what he had done. And he did end up thinking, not about the accident with the vase but of all the monsters that were there with him inching closer. He banged on the door and begged his mom to open up till he passed out. He was 5yrs old then.

Years later at the age of 13, he still had night terrors and sometimes incidents of bedwetting. Yet whenever he tried to talk about it to his mother she just mocked and belittled him. She often called him over-sensitive and sometimes, when she was particularly peeved, she even called him crazy. These behaviors would unfortunately only collect as signs of resentment in the family. But thankfully Manny took matters in his own hands when he grew up.

At the age of 21, Manny feels moving out of his parent’s house was the best thing he ever did. He understands that it is very difficult to deal with toxic parents when you live with them, and sometimes it is best to let them go. He still has night terrors sometimes, but he is seeing a counselor and he feels much better.

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Below are 8 signs you were raised by a toxic mother, possibly a narcissistic mother jealous of her daughter, and some eye-opening tips to battle these and lead a better life.

8 Signs You Were Raised By A Toxic Mother

Dr. Bhonsle says “Becoming a mother is a biological inevitability for a woman, but motherhood is a role. And sometimes due to certain factors, a woman is unable to fulfill this role properly. If a woman has a personality disorder, then her toxicity is not limited to her children, she is going to treat everyone around her the same.” “However, unfortunately, quite a few times this toxicity is the result of generations of toxic behaviors which are signs of resentment in the family, so much so that it becomes normalized,” explains Dr. Bhonsle.

“It is a vicious circle. A woman who hasn’t had enough exposure, who has maybe lived a very sheltered life, will not realize the toxicity that she has inherited and as a result, she will not only be unable to escape its clutches, she will also end up passing it on to her children,” he says. You might shrug your shoulders and say that mothers hate their daughters but love their sons or that they suffer from jealous mother syndrome directed to their female child. But that clearly can not be the presumption.

It is mind-numbing when one understands the magnitude of people who deal with toxic parents and how deep-rooted this issue is. In a study titled An Exploratory Investigation of Jealousy in the Family, 52% of respondents claimed they experienced jealousy in the family out of which 21.2% respondents said it was from their mother. But, one thing does help put our mind to rest. It is the knowledge that there is a way out of this.

As Dr. Bhonsle says, “The first step to healing from a toxic mother is to first recognize and accept you have a toxic mother. This acceptance will be the bedrock of your attempt to heal from it.” Here are 8 signs you have been raised by a toxic mother and important tips to help you find peace after a toxic relationship.

1. You fear manipulation and have trust issues

Let’s admit it – manipulation is very commonplace. Sometimes even your cat will try to manipulate you by looking at you with those big eyes. However, to deal with toxic parents when you are living with them becomes a whole different ball game. You are so used to being manipulated by them regularly, that you develop deep-seated issues.

Not only do you develop trust issues, but you might also avoid relationships for fear of being manipulated. Your faith in other people is so badly damaged that it becomes difficult for you to trust anyone at all.

Expert’s Healing Tip: ”When a person has trust issues, he needs to understand that not all people are the same. That some people in fact deserve to be trusted. For that, they need a safe space to express their thoughts,” says Dr. Bhonsle. “One has to completely redesign their thinking under the guidance of a therapist. A therapist will help support them in a way that they are able to see the part of the horizon that they were missing out on, all this time.”

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2. There is an intense need to be perfect

When a child is raised in a toxic environment, where he is mocked, yelled at, scolded, or emotionally or physically or mentally abused for every mistake he makes, it scars him. This child grows up to have an excessive need to be perfect at all times. He simply cannot fathom making a mistake as the thought of failure scares him. A few ways this can manifest in your life:

  • You feel motivated by fear
  • You fear failure so much you tend to procrastinate
  • You tend to focus on results and do not enjoy the process
  • You have unrealistic expectations from the results of your endeavors
  • Failure puts you in a spiral of depression

Expert’s Healing Tip: When asked Dr. Bhonsle said, “Wanting to be perfect all the time without failure is an unrealistic goal. It is actually very important to make mistakes because that is what pushes you to understand yourself better. It allows you to discover yourself and grow.” If you haven’t made a mistake, then you haven’t learned anything new.

3. You are extremely self-critical

Toxic parents can be overly critical of their children, undermining their achievements in the process. Whether be it body shaming you, insulting your friends, or your crush they are quick to point out flaws and mock the child for his mistakes. One of the 8 signs you were raised by a toxic mother is that you’ve grown up feeling worthless and undeserving.

Your warped view of yourself makes you hesitant, second-guessing yourself in anything that you do. The question “Is my mom toxic or am I overreacting”, ironically, is a sign of a self-critical, unsure person. Other signs may look like this:

  • When you have a negative interaction you always assume it must have been your fault
  • You constantly second guess yourself
  • You feel what you do is never good enough
  • You avoid taking risks

Expert’s Healing Tip: “Go after something you love to do,” says Dr. Bhonsle, “So, if you are creative and like to draw, then do that. If you are curious and like to learn new things, then go for it. Let these values define who you are and who you can be.” Sounds too simple to be true? There is perfectly good logic behind it.

When you do something you love you will give your best to it. Fighting for a cause is a thousand times easier when you believe in it. So, go for it and do what you love. You will not only be in a better place mentally, but it will also boost your self-esteem.

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4. You put yourself last

It can be very challenging to deal with toxic parents when you live with them. They expect you to put their needs before anyone or anything else, including you. If you don’t, the treatment meted out to you will be such, that you will be forced to question your environment and wonder, how do you know when your mother hates you? And it doesn’t come as a surprise.

After all, when you are constantly told that you are being selfish and thoughtless, you end up believing it. You consider yourself a bad person and you try so hard to change that. You look for more and more ways to be more empathetic in a relationship, you try to be understanding, willing to do anything to prove that you are not such a person. And before you know it you are putting your needs last.

Expert’s Healing Tip: “Frankly it’s a lifelong challenge.” Explains Dr. Bhonsle, “To break out of this thought process, one has to change their philosophy completely. It’s very important to remember not to be so hard on ourselves.” He further adds, “The world is a tough place, so it’s completely okay to look out for yourself. Cause at the end of the day it’s you who has to pick up the pieces of your life.”

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5. You feel anxious

Children who have been raised by a toxic mother or toxic parents are often diagnosed with anxiety disorders or mommy issues. A family is supposed to make you feel safe, a place where you don’t have to keep a lookout all the time. But when your family fails to provide you with this security, and you’ve had to be on guard your whole life, it takes a toll on you. Other signs you have become an anxious person are:

  • You feel physically restless or tensed
  • You resting heart rate is above normal most of the time
  • You are easily startled
  • You don’t sleep well

Expert’s Healing Tip: “When there is a toxic mother who is unable to provide her child with a safe environment, in such an instance, the child often seeks the company of other people who act as mother figures and are able to provide that safe space,” says Dr. Bhonsle, “And that is perfectly fine.”

While there are medications that do help with anxiety, certain lifestyle changes are also required. Eating a balanced diet, proper sleep and exercise, help with anxiety. It is also essential to be connected to people who care about you.

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People raised by a toxic mother or toxic parents are often diagnosed with anxiety disorders

6. You crave assurance

“I will not compliment you,” Anne told her daughter Eliza when she showed her artwork to her mother. “If I tell you, it is good, it will only get into your head.” The standard response of a narcissistic toxic mother is also a type of emotional manipulation to get her way. It didn’t hurt Eliza, but she was accustomed to her mother’s dismissive behavior. But as Eliza grew up she craved approval from everyone. To the point, she was willing to bend over backward to get that affirmation. Here are a few signs that you can notice in your behavior:

  • You are a people pleaser. You go out of your way to give out favors
  • You find it very difficult to say no
  • You project a very high image of yourself to hide your true feelings of insecurity
  • You feel inadequate in most interactions

Expert’s Healing Tip: “The thing about seeking validation from external sources is, it is conditional,” explains Dr. Bhonsle. He adds, “You will only receive someone’s approval if you do things that they want you to do. The moment you fail to do so, their approval is lost. We pick our own happiness and miseries. It is vital to remember that.”

7. You almost always find yourself in a co-dependent relationship

One of the 8 signs you have been raised by a toxic mother is, quite often you find yourself in a co-dependent relationship. A co-dependent relationship is one where a partner direly wants to feel needed and feels worthless if they are not able to meet all the needs of their partner. On the other hand, the partner is perfectly satisfied with someone else taking care of all their needs.

Expert’s Healing Tip: “For a person who has lacked certain elements of a healthy relationship due to a toxic mother, it is normal to seek those elements in their romantic relationships. To a level, it is healthy even. Nothing wrong in getting a little extra love,” says Dr. Bhonsle, “But, the bottom line is you are responsible for your own happiness. As long as your happiness depends on fulfilling other people’s needs, or depending on other people to fulfill your requirements, you will never truly be happy.”

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8. Extremely rebellious or completely timid or merely existing

“A person who has been raised by a toxic mother can go down any of these 3 paths”. explains Dr. Bhonsle “They might become extremely rebellious, trying to prove themselves at every instance. Or they become very timid with very low self-esteem, allowing people to walk over them. Or in some instances, they might completely stop caring at all about anything in life. They go with the flow, never feeling passionately about anything.”

Expert’s Healing Tip: All of these paths might give rise to mental health issues. Life isn’t about surviving each day, going through the motions. Life is about living and experiencing all that it has to offer – the good and the bad. It is about maintaining a balance; only then can one grow into a well-rounded person.

Key Pointers

  • All relationships have disagreements, yet toxic relationships retain a constant component of unpleasantness and discomfort to a point where they hinder your mental well-being.
  • Have you, in your relationship with your mother, been frequently made to feel guilty, unworthy, ashamed, or frustrated?
  • A few signs of a toxic mother are that she needs to be in control of your life and regularly infringes upon your boundaries. She lacks empathy, tries to get her way through manipulation and has no control of her emotions
  • You might have turned out to be an adult who has trust issue, is over-critical, has an intense need to be perfect, feels anxious, craves validation from others, is codependent in their present relationships, among other repercussions
  • The first step to healing from a toxic mother is to recognize and accept you have a toxic mother. In addition, one has to completely redesign their thinking under the guidance of a therapist.

To anyone whose mother’s actions made them ask the question, how do you know your mother hates you, I would like to say, everyone exhibits toxic traits at one point in their life to someone. We all have flaws. You must recognize what they are and try your best to change them. One is never too old to grow. But if the process gets too overwhelming for you and you need the support of an expert, Bonobology’s panel of expert counselors are here to help you.

FAQs

1. How do you tell if your mother resents you?

Look for signs your mother resents you. She may be infringing upon your boundaries, criticizing you constantly. She tries to control your life while showing no control over her emotions when it comes to you.

2. What is an unhealthy mother daughter relationship?

In a toxic mother daughter relationship, there is a constant component of unpleasantness and discomfort to a point where they hinder your mental well-being, and you are frequently made to feel guilty, unworthy, ashamed, or frustrated.

3. What do you do when you feel like your mom hates you?

If you are in the position to seek your independence or move out, do it as soon as possible. Find support in friends and other members of your family. Consult with a professional counselor or therapist to guide you.

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